These last 2 days have been torture, I can’t seem to figure out how I want to balance my work to being being a wife and mother (well soon to be wife hopefully).
My anxiety has reached a different kind of anxious, I burst into tears. It’s like I can’t cope. Poor Grant has witnessed or heard 2 of my meltdowns and my parents listened to one at 3am this morning. My back is killing me and that has deflated me super hard because when I was heavily pregnant and I wasn’t as sore as I am right now.
On the upside I remembered everything like there wasn’t a 5 month gap between shifts, which was really refreshing considering how nervous I was. I feel like there are pros and cons to everything however I’m struggling to decipher them now. Why is work/life not the easiest thing to achieve? We all want a standard job that allows us to earn a substantial income as well as do all the things we want to.
So far though not a bad start with my return to work and I continue on tonight. Wish me luck all because I am fucking tired lol.